What keeps you going?

For me it is not yet having achieved what I want to in life. In essence I believe this applies to us all really. We all need clear visible goals that we are striving to achieve. When I was younger I used to watch Dawson’s Creek. This seems like a very strange thing to bring up I know, but I loved that show. I could relate so much to the main character. Sure the franchise started to drag on a little too long and the characters (supposed teenagers) talked like college professors but the show was just so positive in nature and filled with great quotes- for people of any age – to carry with them, on through their life journey. I actually took my online username from the place where the majority of the show was filmed in Wilmington (North Carolina) although I spelled it wrong as Willmington..oh well.

It had great music as well. It’s clear that the creator Kevin Williamson and co had a love of music, which can be seen from the episode titles that often referenced the names of classic rock hits. It was written semi-biographically giving it much more power and credibility to me and showcased nature and tranquility. I’ve gone off subject here, but the point I wanted to make is that I actually take inspiration from Dawson (or Kevin, if we are thinking real life) following his career goals in life and the extents he was willing to go to, to make his dreams a reality. He had a love of film making and although it would seem more like a pipe dream to others, he made sure that this work would always be in his life.

Dawson, Joey and Pacey making film

Dawson the filmaker

One quote that particularly still resonates with me is from season 5, the episode ‘The Long Goodbye’. The episode deals with the aftermath of Dawson’s dad’s death after a road accident. A classic ‘flashback’ scene is used with Dawson remembering his dad walk in to his room and give him a camcorder to make films for his twelfth birthday. Dawson is overjoyed but also adamant that film-making is not just a phase in his youth.  “Let the things you love be your escape”

So here I am now, stuck in my mother’s house forced to listen to the ongoing arguments with her partner. Being helpless to have any positive influence of her self-imposed merry go round of misery. I lost my grandad last Christmas so now also often care for my grandmother, my dad past away a few years back now. My own relationships are far from great at present and I don’t really have anywhere to go get away from all this crap. But this is when it is most important to keep the positive messages in my head. I keep on working on the things I love in live as much as I possibly can, because I know this is what will lead me to a better life and to where I want to be. I’m making sure that I’m sticking to a productive routine and that I continue to work and improve myself whilst I bind my time to grab at my chances in life. I know that once I get a hold I’m not letting go.

Sun going down on the creek

Would be nice to walk out back to this everyday

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